Chaotic Moments

by Amy Grant, She/her

My love letter to the world. I want to be remembered for my joy, the happiness I put out into the world and lovingly gave to others. Mental health can cast a long and dark shadow on all the joys of existing. You forget the power you hold within to impart real change before you leave this world. Do bad things happen, yes. Will they shatter my resolve for spreading positivity and happiness, never. I believe in the power of small joys. The first step towards happiness is, ‘Come as you are and not what others want you to be.’

Chaotic Moments

PISTACHIO GELATO – MORSELS OF TIME.

SPENDING HEARTBEATS ON YOUR ATTENTION, I’M ALL IN

CHILDHOOD TRAUMA TO PRESENT DAY MESS.

I WANT TO BE KNOWN

SUCCULENT-VULNERABILITY.

BRAIN FREEZE-SENSITIVITY

COSMIC DUST-TIME CAPSULE.

SELFISHLY, I WANT TO CONNECT

BE SMILE-WORTHY.

TO MAKE OTHERS FEEL HOW AURORA’S LYRICS

‘I NEVER HAD THE WORLD, SO WHY CHANGE FOR IT?’ MAKES ME FEEL.

DAYTIME GROCERY SHOPPING IN SAINSBURY’S, AGORAPHOBIC – BRAVE.

TRICHOTILLOMANIA HAS ME PULLING OUT MY EYELASH WISHES.

WISHBONE – HOPES SUPPORT MY WHIMSICAL DESIRES TO FLUTTER.

DON’T TELL MY PENGUIN SHAPED – DREAMS IT IS A FLIGHTLESS BIRD

I HAVE BUMBLEBEE – CONFIDENCE!

I HOPE IN MYSTERIOUS – INVISIBLE WAYS.

MY MEMORY IS REINCARNATED IN OTHERS.

MY ESSENCE IS BLOOMING IN UNINHABITABLE LANDS

SOMETHING IS LEFT OF ME.

A SMALL TRACE OF IMPORTANCE.

MY SOUL SHAPED-BIRTHMARK ON THIS WORLD

THAT LINGERS LIKE THE FEELING OF UNEXPLAINABLE HAPPINESS.

OR SURPRISES LIKE A RAINBOW IN WINTER

TO ECHO… ‘I WAS HERE!

I WANT TO CULTIVATE DANDELION – GOODNESS

KABOOM –

A SUPER NOVA – MOMENT IN TIME.

NOT FADE AWAY LIKE WORDS FINGER-WRITTEN IN THE SAND.

BECOME SYNONYMOUS WITH CHAOTIC-BEAUTY.

LIKE FIREFLY-GREEN SNOW.

A SHATTERING-BELONGING.

WITH MY, ‘BREAK IN CASE OF EMERGENCY’ POPCORN HEART.

I WANT TO SHARE PIECES OF MYSELF.